Caged

I sit, ponder, wonder, analyze, imagine.  Sometimes I have a difficult time trying to put these words in the right order to make sense to you.  I travel through a sea of words in my head searching for the right one.  Why is it this way?  It is the same way when I am trying to reach out to someone that needs help.  Looking for the right phrase or word to jolt them back to what they need.  I find to often that I try to hard and then I hit a block wall.  I need to take time to really put myself in their life and see what it is that keeps this person from committing to God 100%.  Why is it that they only want to peer over the fence to see the Light, but yet they don't want to jump over and be exalted in it?  I need to search in my own mind to find the trigger that keeps them this way.  Maybe I will, and then maybe I won't.  This may be something that I can not even grasp and comprehend.  I pray to God that He will direct the way for me to help out those who need it in this way.

My hands get tired from typing.  I am trying to get some other insight from you to see the problem that I face.  Maybe you don't get it either.  I guess I just need to continue to use this chalk board to find the way out of this problem to help my friend.  I see that he is in a cage filled with rage, depression, fear, stress.  I hope that I have the key to free his mind from all that pain.  Why do the demons have to grab on to the ones that I care for and not let go and want to always fight.  Don't they know that I will win?  Maybe not today, but I will because I have  the Lord our God on my side fighting this battle with me!  But until that victory is had, I need to continue to be strong and forthcoming.

What is it that keeps a person in shackles that can't be seen?  What is it that triggers him to want to leave his family, if only for a while, to get that next bit of false pleasure?  What can be done to intervene in such a way that they never want to do that again?  Why can't the answers come quickly to me and be done in an instant?  These are the things that I grapple with.  If I could save the world, I would.  But I don't have that power!  But I still say I want to save at least one.  Why does the false pleasure feel more gratifying than pure love?  Where do I go from here?  Looking for answers.

I was once on this path, but through the Light of Jesus and God The Father, they led me away from that.  Giving me pure love, more than I can ever accept for all the wrong that I have done in my past.  I still remember that day that I jumped over the fence and not just peered over it!  But now, I have to look peer over it in the other direction to try to stop friends from being attacked.   It is hard to do, but if evil doesn't take a day off, then neither will I!!!!

These are the things that I deal with and want to resolve.  Only God can handle this problem.  But I will still do what I can to be a tool and try to guide those who need it to God and all His Glory!

Opie